DOCTOR'S, DOCTOR'S AND MORE DOCTORS......

SO HERE'S THE BACKSTORY, IN 2003 OR 04 I FELL DOWN A FLIGHT OF STAIRS. IT WAS NOBODY'S FAULT BUY MY OWN. thought i was late for work and went for a tumble.

I HURT MY RIGHT SHOULDER. I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL AND IT WAS TOO SWOLLEN TO SEE IF I BROKE IT, SO THEY GAVE ME PAIN MEDS AND ANTI-INFLAMMATORY PILLS AND SENT ME HOME.

EVERY FEW MONTHS OR SO MY SHOULDER WOULD ACT UP. SO I WOULD GO SEE THE DR. AND GET A STEROID AND PAIN MEDS AND WOULD BE FINE.

NOW HERE WE ARE IN 09 AND I HAVE BEEN ON LONG TERM PAIN MEDICATION FOR 2 YEARS WITH NO END IN SIGHT.

MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND ENROLLED US IN TRICARE PRIME, WHICH MEANS WE CAN BE TREATED AT A MILITARY HOSPITAL AND IT NOT COST ANYTHING, SOUNDS GREAT HUH. NOT. THE DOCTOR I WAS SENT TO SEEN HERE SENT ME FOR AN MRI IN APRIL AND AN XRAY. IN THE MEANTIME HE SENT ME TO A PAIN CLINIC 30 MILES AWAY TO MANAGE MY PAIN, SINCE HE WOULDN'T PRESCRIBE THE PAIN MEDICATION. NICE HUH. ASSHOLE.

THE PAIN CLINIC DR SAID "I DON'T KNOW WHY HE SENT YOU HERE, YOU NEED SURGERY" AND FROM LOOKING AT THE MRI, HE IS RIGHT, MULTIPLE TEARS IN THE SHOULDER MUSCLE AND A BONE FLOATING IN THE SHOULDER ITSELF.
FINALLY A MONTH OR TWO AFTER MY MRI, I FINALLY GET TO SEE THE ORTHO DOC ON BASE. HE TELLS ME THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH MY SHOULDER, AND WHEN I BRING IT UP TO HIM THAT THE OTHER DOC SAID I SHOULD HAVE SURGERY, HE BLATENTLY SAID "THEY ARE PAIN CLINIC PEOPLE, THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT"

HMMMMMM. THE PAIN CLINIC DOCTOR IS A MEDICAL DOCTOR, I'M PRETTY SURE HE HAD TO GO THROUGH THE SAME SCHOOLING THE ORTHO DOC WENT THROUGH, BUT ACCORDING TO HIM, HE'S AN IDIOT. OK THEN.

THE ORTHO DOC WANTS ME TO GOTO PHYSICAL THERAPY. I TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO HIM WHAT MY JOB CONSISTED OF AND THE FACT THAT I LIFT IN UPWARDS OF 150 POUNDS ALL DAY EVERYDAY. BUT THAT SEEMED OF NO CONCERN TO HIM.

SO MY NEXT APPOINTMENT AT THE PAIN CLINIC, THEY ASKED ME WHEN I WAS DUE FOR SURGERY, AND I HAD TO EXPLAIN TO THEM THAT HE DOESN'T THINK I NEED IT. AND THAT HAS PROMPTED FOR ANOTHER MRI, THIS TIME OF MY NECK AND A 2ND OPINION FROM ANOTHER DOCTOR.

GOOD LORD PEOPLE MAKE UP YOUR MIND, EITHER I NEED THIS OR I DON'T, I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO NOT BE IN PAIN FOR MORE THAN AN HOUR AT A TIME.

BLAHHHHH, NOW I GET TO HAVE A NERVE CONDUCTION DONE ON THE 24TH AND HOPEFULLY THAT WILL GIVE ME A CLEAR IDEA OF WHAT I NEED TO DO TO MAKE MY BODY FEEL BETTER.

SEE YA

SHOULD I GO BACK TO WORK?

SO I LEFT MY JOB LAST FRIDAY BECAUSE I REFUSE TO BE TREATED WITH DISRESPECT. AND AS MY SON CALLS ME, I AM A ONE WOMAN LABOR BOARD. HA! AFTER I LEFT THE ENTIRE EVENING SHIFT LEFT WITHIN 5 DAYS.

SO YESTURDAY AS I WAS GETTING READY TO START MY HOUSEHOLD CHORES, IT HAPPENED, MY OLD JOB CALLED ME AND ASKED ME TO COME BACK. I GUESS THEY FEEL AS IF THEY CAN TOLERATE ME LONG ENOUGH TO FIND SOME STAFF.

SO AS I AM SITTING HER TODAY DEBATING ON GOING IN, I HAVE TO ASK MYSELF. IS IT REALLY WORTH IT? AND THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT, THE MORE I THINK NO, IT'S REALLY NOT.

I MEAN WHO WANTS TO WORK IN A PLACE WHERE DISRESPECT IS THE ONLY WAY THEY KNOW TO COMMUNICATE?

I AM NOT FROM MISSOURI, I AM FROM FLORIDA, AND COME FROM A FAMILY OF RESPECT FOR EACH OTHER, MEANING YES MAAM, NO MAAM, PLEASE AND THANK YOU'S.

WHEN WE MOVED HERE, I NEVER KNEW THAT I WOULD BE TAKING A HUGE PAY CUT. WE ARE TALKING HUGE. BUT I FIGURED SINCE MY PAYCHECKS WERE SPENDING MONEY, IT WASN'T THAT BIG OF A DEAL...........OMG HOW WRONG WAS I?

THE PLACE I WENT TO WORK DOESN'T HAVE A CLUE WHAT IT MEANS TO BE COMPETITIVE IN PAY. THEY START THESE POOR GIRLS OUT AT JUST ABOVE MINIMUM WAGE AND EXPECT THEM TO BUST THEIR ASSES, WOW, I AM JUST AMAZED AT THIS.

AFTER ABOUT 3 WEEKS OF DEALING WITH PEOPLE TALKING TO ME LIKE I AM A 5 YR OLD, I DECIDED TO QUIT. NOW KEEPING IN MIND, I DON'T HAVE TO WORK. MY HUSBAND TAKES CARE OF ME AND I TAKE CARE OF OUR HOUSEHOLD. THE BILLS ARE PAID, SO WE ARE HAPPY, WE DON'T NEED MUCH.

I SPOKE WITH MY BOSS YESTURDAY AND TOLD HER MY BIGGEST ISSUE WAS THE WAY PEOPLE SPOKE TO OTHER PEOPLE, AND IF THEY CAN'T GET IT RIGHT, THEN I DON'T NEED TO BE THERE. MY HUSBAND STANDS BEHIND ME NO MATTER WHAT DECISION I MAKE. SO NOW I AM SITTING HERE TODAY DEBATING ON WHETHER OR NOT TO GOTO WORK TODAY. I MEAN AM I GOING TO BE TREATED WITH THE SAME DISRESPECT I MET WITH WHEN I LEFT? OR IS IT GOING TO BE BETTER?

MY OTHER ISSUE IS, I HAVE A 15 YR OLD WHOS GRADES SLIPPED WHILE I WAS WORKING BEFORE, AM I WILLING TO RISK THAT?

I DON'T KNOW. I'M SURE I'LL FIGURE IT OUT BY 1 PM TODAY.

WISH ME LUCK IN DECISIONS.

LOVE YA ALL
JACKIE

AH LABOR DAY

SO TODAY IS LABOR DAY IN MISERY aka missouri.

SO FAR TODAY I HAVE HAD TO GROUND THE BOY WONDER AFTER I GOT HIS PROGRESS REPORT FROM SCHOOL.

NOW I KNOW 10TH GRADE IS HARD, BUT WE ARE TALKING ABOUT A VERY SMART BOY, WHO IS JUST LAZY AND DOESN'T LIKE TO WRITE. PFFFFT WHO DOES?

IN THE AGE OF COMPUTERS AND PRINTERS AND KIDS NOT HAVING TO WRITE ANYMORE, HOW CAN WE EXPECT OUR CHILDREN TO WANT TO WRITE A LETTER, OR ANYTHING. THEY TELL THEM AT SCHOOL TO DO A REPORT AND TYPE IT UP DOUBLE SPACE....ETC AND PRINT IT OUT.

WHATEVER HAPPENED TO SITTING DOWN AND WRITING THE DAMN THING OUT? WE HAD TO DO IT IN SCHOOL, ONLY BECAUSE THE ONLY COMPUTERS WE HAD WERE THE OLD COMMODOR 64'S AND THEY ONLY RAN PROGRAMS. OH LORD I AM SOOOOO FEELING MY AGE AGAIN.

BACK TO THE SCHOOLS, MY SON IS 15 AND LAZYYYYYYYYYY. I HAVE SEEN HIS HANDWRITING AND IT'S ALMOST LIKE THEY DIDN'T TEACH HIM TO WRITE IN KINDERGARTEN. WHAT THE HELL????? I KNOW WE TAUGHT HIM TO WRITE HIS ABC'S AND 123'S, BUT IT'S GONE TO SHIT OVER THE YEARS.

OK ENOUGH ABOUT THAT.

SO HERE WE ARE IN MISERY, BEEN HERE SINCE MARCH, AND I REALLY DO MISS FLORIDA. I ASK MYSELF A LOT WHY I MARRIED MY HUSBAND AND THE SAME ANSWER KEEPS FLOATING TO THE FRONT OF MY MIND, BECAUSE I LOVE HIM.

HE IS IN THE ARMY, HAS BEEN FOR 18 YEARS IN OCTOBER. HE HAS BEEN TO THE SANDBOX 3 TIMES FOR A TOTAL OF 3 YEARS.
WE MET THROUGH FRIENDS OF OURS, AND JUST DIDN'T LIKE EACH OTHER MUCH WHEN WE MET. BUT, THROUGH HIS PERSISTENCE IT PAID OFF, WE HAD LUNCH ONE DAY, A MOVIE ONE DAY, DINNER ONE NIGHT, AND JUST OUT OF NOWHERE IT HIT ME THAT WE WERE DATING.

I WASN'T READY. WHAT HAPPENED? DAMN I WAS GOING ALONG IN LIFE HAPPY AS I COULD BE, HAD A GREAT JOB, GREAT FRIENDS, AND WAS SINGLE!!!!!!!!

WHICH MEANT NO ONE TO ANSWER TO, NO ONE QUESTIONING ME, AND ALL THE HAPPY GO LUCKY SEX I WANTED TO HAVE.

THEN IT ENDED ONE DAY. BUT, I WAS HAPPY STILL.

IT JUST AMAZES ME HOW LIFE CREEPS UP ON YOU AND ONE MINUTE YOU ARE DOING YOUR OWN THING AND THE NEXT YOU ARE SHARING YOUR LIFE WITH SOMEONE WHO WAS A TOTAL SURPRISE.

I AM VERY HAPPY IN MY LIFE, I JUST MY HOME AND FRIENDS AND FAMILY. BUT I FOUND OUT THAT NO MATTER WHERE I GO IN THIS WORLD, MY HUSBAND IS MY HOME AND I LOVE HIM FOR THAT.

TODAY WE ARE GRILLING STEAKS AND STAYING HOME, WE DON'T CARE FOR THE DRUNK DRIVERS OUT THERE.

AND TONIGHT I AM WATCHING HOUSE AND AWAITING THE RETURN OF ONE OF MY FAVORITE SHOWS.........HEHEHE AND EVERYONE IN THIS HOUSE INCLUDING THE CATS KNOW TO LEAVE ME ALONE TOMORROW NIGHT AT 9PM CENTRAL TIME SO I CAN ENJOY SONS OF ANARCHY.

EVERYONE HAVE A SAFE LABOR DAY AND BE HAPPY. GOD BLESS THE TROOPS AND THE SACRIFICE THEY MAKE.